Happy 2014 everyone! Since I haven't already, it's definitely time for me to sit and reflect for a minute. I will apologize in advance for the length. But my word vomit is building up, and I need to get it out! :) Might get lovey and mushy, I'm sorry!
This past year came with so many great memories, achievements, and lessons.
I really started to see myself as an adult this last 6 months or so, and it's kinda WEIRD. Some days, I see myself just out of high school. (That was over 5 years ago...) Other days, I see myself as a working adult in society just trying to make a life for herself. Though I'm only 24, I feel like right now is my "prime" time. I feel like this is the time where I want to really set my future in place. My life with Ty, my career, everything. It seems so exciting and terrifying all at once.
Over the course of 2013, I made some drastic changes that sort of made me feel like I was progressing towards a better life. And that I was actually ready to start making some big kid decisions.
1. I got a new job in management, which I love. I am in a completely different role than I have ever been, and I am learning and growing so much, so fast.
2. Don't laugh, but I got a new car...and for those who already know that situation, me getting a new car was a huge deal.
3. I ran a half marathon, which is something I never in a million years thought I could do.
4. Ty and I celebrated 5 years of togetherness, and that was a big deal for us. Though we are not married, we still celebrate "us" the same way. We also picked a "baby" time, which will be fall of this year. That was exciting to talk about. Just because during almost our whole relationship we have been pretty much anti-baby. I think that was our way of setting our priorities...and sure a couple years ago, a baby really wasn't in the cards for us anytime soon. So now that we are ready, and our perspective has changed, it's weird/awesome/exciting/scary...all of that.
5. We will also (hopefully, wink-wink) be having a wedding sometime this year. Again, also a huge life event. EEEEEP.
So now I'm looking back, but also looking forward. This year might be a bit chaotic with everything we want to do. It's funny how sometimes it all just happens at once. Usually people try and space out jobs, school, marriage, kids, house... but sometimes the light bulb just clicks and you know what you are ready for. I am so grateful for Ty. I am so happy we are at the stage that we are in life together. Though our relationship is NOT in any way perfect, and we have our differences and conflicts...we always work them out. Thinking about our future together makes me teary, because I'm so excited to be with someone I love so much, and share so many great experiences with. It's funny how much you learn and grow over time in a relationship. I remember when we first started dating and I thought I knew him/me/us like the back of my hand, and I understood our relationship completely. I was very, very wrong. Over our 5 1/2 years together, I look at things now, and I can't believe how much I've learned. The goods, the bads, the lessons, the love... it's amazing to me. Now more than ever I feel like I am grounded, and I understand what we have. I understand our strengths, our weaknesses, and I have confidence in our future. I don't use the word "blessed" often, but I feel that with my relationship. Blessing, luck, whatever it is. I am grateful I have what we have. I wasn't searching for it, I wasn't hoping for it....Ty came in to my life so randomly. I couldn't be happier about that :) The fact that we are both excited and ready for the future, brings me so much happiness.
On that subject, I do want to say that I appreciate everyone who supports us, SO MUCH! I can't imagine a life without the support of my family and friends. I know everyone has their opinions, and their input, but I really do respect and appreciate the unconditional love and support from you. Ty and I have done things a little backwards, not intentionally, but that is just how things worked out. I'm glad everyone has been there for us through it all, cheering us on. Thank you!
As far as personal goals, I am struggling this year. I'm not in school, and I probably won't be going back this year. So that goal isn't in the mix. I landed the job I wanted, so that's out. I do want to do another half marathon, but that's an easy win. Maybe this is the year I get to just enjoy. Without stepping backwards of course, but just to plan my wedding, plan for my baby time, really start my family. I've always had goals of school school school and work work work, it is nice to have other goals now. It's almost accomplishing to be moving on to these other beautiful things in life. It's all sort of confusing and scary to me. But I'm confident and excited that now is the time. :) <3
Now, bring on this new year! I can't wait for the good times to come. I love you all, and wish you the best for this upcoming year.
As far as personal goals, I am struggling this year. I'm not in school, and I probably won't be going back this year. So that goal isn't in the mix. I landed the job I wanted, so that's out. I do want to do another half marathon, but that's an easy win. Maybe this is the year I get to just enjoy. Without stepping backwards of course, but just to plan my wedding, plan for my baby time, really start my family. I've always had goals of school school school and work work work, it is nice to have other goals now. It's almost accomplishing to be moving on to these other beautiful things in life. It's all sort of confusing and scary to me. But I'm confident and excited that now is the time. :) <3
Now, bring on this new year! I can't wait for the good times to come. I love you all, and wish you the best for this upcoming year.
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